FACEBOOK

I WAS BORED THE OTHER NIGHT SO I STARTED POKING AROUND ON THE INTERNET AND FOUND FACEBOOK. I OF COURSE HAD TO SIGN UP AND HAVE ONE OF MY WORK BUDDIES TAKE A PICTURE OF ME. I HAVE GOTTEN A KICK OUT OF ALL THE PEOPLE I HAVE FOUND. I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW MANY PEOPLE I HAVE KNOWN IN MY SHORT LIFE. IT IS COOL TO SEE WHERE EVERYONE HAS ENDED UP. I HAVE DECIDED THAT I NEED TO TAKE MORE PICTURES OF ME AND BRADEN. HE IS OUT AT HIS DAD'S PLACE FOR THE CHRISTMAS HOLIDAY. I THINK HE IS HAVING FUN..I HEAR THAT HE GOT A PAIR OF HEELYS FOR CHRISTMAS. HEELYS ARE THE SHOES THAT HAVE WHEELS IN THEM. I AM SOOOO NOT HAPPY TO HEAR THAT HE GOT A PAIR. ALL I CAN ENVISION IS ME TELLING HIM NO LESS THAN FIVE MILLION TIMES TO STOP SKATING AROUND WAL MART. THEN HE IS GOING TO SMASH INTO AN END DISPLAY AND KNOCK OVER A WHOLE END OF 2 LITER SODA BOTTLES THAT WILL EXPLODE EVERYWHERE AND WE WILL BE ESCORTED OUT OF THE STORE AND ASKED TO PLEASE NEVER RETURN. WELL IT COULD HAPPEN!! MY SISTER WAS VISITING DOWN IN THE SOUTHERN CA AREA AND SHE WENT TO TAKE BRADEN FOR THE DAY..SHE SAID THEY HAD A BLAST. I WAS SO GLAD THAT SOMEONE FROM MY FAMILY GOT TO SEE MY LITTLE PRINCE. I HAVE ATTACHED THE PICTURE THAT KATIE TOOK AT MCDONALDS..GOTTA RUN..MORE LATER

Tooth Fairy

The tooth fairy had to make a visit to our house this week. My little prince pulled another tooth out. That was cool, but the tooth fairy never has any cash. I suggested that we hold off for a day because maybe on the weekend the tooth fairy would pay out better. That went well. I discussed how much my little prince was expecting...he said eight dollars because he is eight years old. What? Are you kidding..that's what I said..he looked at me like I was crazy and said yes he was very serious. I told him I had been lucky to get fifty cents for my teeth. I called his dad and ran that figure by him and he had the same reaction I had. Thank goodness! We decided that two dollars would be acceptable. So I rounded up two dollars in cash and waited for him to fall asleep last night. When he woke up this morning I asked if the tooth fairy had stopped by and he said yes as he was clutching his cash in his hand. I asked how much she had brought and he counted out two dollars and then started looking for more under the pillow. He said that can't be all she left. He was sure that there was more to be found. He also said where is the change..the tooth fairy always leaves change..I don't know where he comes up with some of the things that he says. I so wanted to tell him that the tooth fairy does not exist but I didn't. I guess I had better save up for his next tooth...

Blackberry Update

In my previous post today I failed to update everyone on the Blackberry situation. I went to activate my new "refurbished" Blackberry and my old one with all my contacts and settings miraculously came to life. I wanted to keep the old one so I decided to keep it for a week or so to see if I was really back from the dead. Well the Verizon guy said that I had to use the new "refurbished" Blackberry or the insurance would not cover the phone if it broke again. So, I got the new "refurbished" Blackberry up and running and got all the settings just the way I liked them and then...it wouldn't charge. I finally got it to charge and thought maybe that had been a fluke, but no it was not a fluke. Finally on Halloween night it died. So, I had to call the insurance company and have them send yet another new "refurbished" Blackberry. Since the phone died before I could forward the phone number to my other cell phone I had to call customer service and mess with them for about an hour before everything was set up the way I needed it to be. Three days later I received my new "refurbished" Blackberry. I set this one up all by myself and now it is working perfectly...Happiness at last...lets hope it lasts!!!!

Back Again

I haven't written in a few weeks, but I am still here. My little prince and I are surviving. I have decided to pursue a job here in North Carolina and I will be looking for a roommate. I am looking into a job in our communications call center, basically that is a 911 operator. The pay starts off better and there is overtime to be had. They have filled all of their open positions but they still have three over hire positions that are frozen as of today, but hopefully they can talk the city into thawing one position for me. I went and sat with two teams and I guess they were impressed with me and feel that I would be a good match for their group. They work twelve hour shifts and there are six people on a team. I am trying real hard not to get my hopes up too far with the economy the way it is jobs are harder to come by. I have decided to stay here for the time being and just live my life the way I want and not the way anyone else wants me to live. I came out here to start over and now I need to follow through. I guess I just didn't realize how hard it would be to start all over again. Anyways we are gonna be fine and I will get things back in order within the next few years. My little prince got straight A's this first quarter and numerous other awards. I am so proud of him!!! I can't believe that he will be turning nine years old this next month. I can't possibly be old enough to have a child that old, right? Stop laughing! He was in a little Christmas program at the church last weekend and got a little shy. I had to work that day but the children's choir leader told me that he was a little shy singing in front of everyone. He has really enjoyed going to church and we make it a priority to be there. I think that he might have told his Sunday school teacher that we are poor because they sent us a gift card to Wal Mart. I asked him if he had said anything and he said oh yes I told them that my mom didn't have any money. I was mortified, but that's how it goes with kids...

WORDS OF WISDOM

IN MY QUEST TO MAKE A DECISION AS TO OUR LIVING SITUATION I HAVE HAD MANY A DISCUSSION WITH MY LITTLE PRINCE. THIS WEEKEND HE HAD SOME WORDS OF WISDOM FOR ME. AS I WAS EXPLAINING THAT SOMETIMES LIFE DOESN'T WORK OUT LIKE THE FAIRY TALE THAT I HAD ENVISIONED HE SAID YOU KNOW FAIRY TALES ARE NOT REAL THEY ARE TALL TALES....

MY FOUR DAYS OFF

RIGHT NOW I AM WORKING THIRD SHIFT. THAT IS NINE AT NIGHT TO SEVEN IN THE MORNING. I DO LIKE THIS SHIFT. LAST WEEK I GOT NO SLEEP AT ALL. WHEN I GOT HOME ON FRIDAY MORNING I WENT TO SLEEP AND I SLEPT ALL DAY. I PICKED UP MY LITTLE PRINCE AT ABOUT 5:30 PM AND WE ATE DINNER AND THEN I WENT STRAIGHT TO BED. I DID NOT GET UP UNTIL NOON ON SATURDAY. IT WAS FABULOUS. MY PRINCE LIKES IT WHEN I SLEEP BECAUSE THEN HE GETS TO WATCH HIS SHOWS ON TV. ONCE I WOKE UP WE WERE GOING TO GO TO THE MOVIES, BUT OF COURSE MY FABULOUS LUCK HAD OTHER IDEAS. FIRST OF ALL I WAS WOKEN UP BY A TEXT MESSAGE FROM MY EX HUSBAND..THE MOST RECENT EX..I HAVE HAD VERY LITTLE CONTACT WITH THAT ONE SINCE LEAVING OUR HOUSE. THIS PAST WEEK I SAW THAT HE HAD GOTTEN A DWI IN A NEIGHBORING COUNTY AND THAT JUST CONFIRMED YET AGAIN THAT I HAD MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE TO LEAVE. I MADE A FEW PHONE CALLS AND THEN WAS PERUSING CRAIGSLIST WHEN THE HORRIBLE HAPPENED..MY BLACKBERRY CRASHED!!! I DO NOT HAVE A COMPUTER AT HOME SO MY BLACKBERRY IS MY LIFELINE. IT HAD A PREVIOUS ACCIDENT A FEW MONTHS AGO THAT INVOLVED THE TOILET AND MAYBE BEING SUBMERGED FOR A MINUTE. IT HAD DRIED OUT NICELY AND WAS WORKING LIKE A CHAMP UNTIL THIS PAST SATURDAY. WELL, THEN IT WAS TIME TO GET UP SHOWER AND OFF TO THE BLACKBERRY STORE. THE ABSOLUTE MOST RUDE PERSON WAS WORKING BEHIND THE COUNTER WHEN I GOT TO THE STORE. SHE TOOK ONE LOOK AT MY PINK LITTLE BEAUTY AND SAID IT IS DEAD...NO LOOKING AT IT OR HOOKING IT UP TO LIFE SUPPORT..JUST A ITS DONE IT HAS BEEN WATER DAMAGED! NOT HEARING WHAT I WANTED I GRABBED MY LITTLE PINK FRIEND AND WAS ON TO THE NEXT BLACKBERRY STORE. THE TWO MEN THAT WERE WORKING AT THIS STORE WERE MUCH MORE FRIENDLY AND THEY HUMORED ME FOR A FEW MINUTES AND THEN I JUST HAD TO ACCEPT THAT MY FRIEND WAS IN FACT DONE FOR. WELL HERE IS THE PROBLEM..I DID HAVE INSURANCE AND ANOTHER PHONE LINE THAT I COULD USE UNTIL THE REPLACEMENT WAS SENT..BUT I DID NOT HAVE MY CONTACTS BACKED UP! YES, YEARS OF PHONE NUMBERS GONE!! I HAVE NUMBERS FROM FOREVER AGO AND NOW THEY ARE JUST GONE. I NEVER DIAL ANY ONES NUMBER ANYMORE I JUST FIND THEIR NAME AND PUSH SEND. SO LONG STORY SHORT I NEED EVERYONE TO SEND ME THEIR CURRENT EMAIL ADDRESS AND CURRENT PHONE NUMBER. WELL THEN ON TO SUNDAY. WE MADE IT TO SUNDAY SCHOOL JUST BY THE SKIN OF OUR TEETH AND THEN OFF TO CHURCH. I HAD TO RUSH TO GET MY NEWSPAPERS AND SODA AND THEN HOME TO WAIT FOR THE NEW BLACKBERRY. WE WAITED ALL DAY AND NOTHING. I DECIDED THAT WE WOULD GO OUT AND SEE A MOVIE IN THE EARLY EVENING. THE ONLY MOVIE THAT WE HAVE AGREED ON IN A LONG TIME WAS BEVERLY HILLS CHIHUAHUA. IT WAS OK AT LEAST I DIDN'T FALL ASLEEP. THEN IT WAS HOME TO GET READY FOR THE SCHOOL WEEK. MONDAY WAS SPENT WAITING AT HOME ALL DAY FOR THE DHL MAN TO DELIVER MY NEW FRIEND. BY FIVE I WAS A LITTLE HOT AS I WAS PROMISED NEXT DAY DELIVERY ON SATURDAY AND HERE IT WAS MONDAY EVENING. I WAS GOING THROUGH CRAIGSLIST WITHDRAWAL. WELL MY REPLACEMENT FINALLY ARRIVED ON TUESDAY AT ALMOST THREE IN THE AFTERNOON. MY FOUR DAYS WAS OFFICIALLY OVER AND IT WAS TIME TO START MY WORK WEEK ALL OVER AGAIN...SO YOU ARE OFFICIALLY CAUGHT UP...I THINK!!!!

Still thinking

I am still trying to decide what to do about my living situation. I listened to the comments that were made and they made sense. Maybe the person that I'm worried about disappointing is myself. I think that if I go back I will let myself down. I came out here to have a new start and sure it didn't turn out the way I thought it would, but does life ever go the way we think it should? I also know that if I go back things will never be the same and that might lead to even more disappointment. I went to church on Wednesday night and I really liked the sermon. The pastor always seems to be speaking right to me. I think that I will have to keep thinking about this decision, maybe next week I will have an answer to my dilemma.....

Newspaper

I love reading the newspaper. That has always been a joke in all of my relationships. I have to read the newspaper everyday in the same order. I used to get tore back when my paper was not delivered. Since I have lived out in NC I have read the Bakersfield paper everyday. I just realized that I keep up on news out there more than I do here in NC. I think that is very interesting....I still read the Sunday paper here but I do not keep up on local events or local scandals. I just don't have much to say today. I have so much on my mind and I have so many mixed feelings about all the decisions I have to make. I need to get all my ducks in a row and make a final decision. For some reason I feel like I will be letting people down here in NC if I go home, but I know that I really need to do whats best for me and my Prince. Just an FYI to the girls that have been commenting on my blog I have not forgotten the September birthdays. I have been compiling a little picture collage and I wanted to call on a day that wasn't so hectic with us all having children now special days are sometimes almost too crazy. I have not forgotten you two. I have been going through all the pictures of our young crazy days!!! Ok, now back to letting people down here in NC. I have made this friend here at work and she really needs someone in her life to help her up if you will. Her husband is a real gem. He is always first to put her down and point out all of her non existent flaws...you know the type. I always try to lift her spirits and treat her especially well. I just feel like I would be abandoning her. The other people are the people at the church we just started going to. They are soooo down to earth and they have been soo nice to me and my Prince. I enjoy all the sermons that the pastor has given and I just hope they would not be disappointed. I don't know why I care so much what other people think or if I am letting others down?! I guess I did have more to say than I thought, sorry for rambling...more later...

Should I stay.....

Should I stay or should I go is the question of the day. I can't seem to make up my mind. I love my job here and I do like the area, but I am all alone out here. I struggle horribly financially out here and I am terribly lonely. Every time I think I'm at my breaking point I just keep trying. I had this great boyfriend but that isn't going to go anywhere and that doesn't help with being lonely. I started going to a church and I do like it, but I just don't fit in out here. The thing is that I want to live the lifestyle that I was accustomed to back home and I cannot do that here. If I stay I will always struggle financially. I just cannot put anything else on my credit cards and I just want to go home. I just don't know what the right thing to do is... I miss my friends and my life back home. I miss going out to eat and going to the beach and visiting my family. I have seen my parents only once in almost two years. I haven't seen one of my sisters at all and I miss her so much. My little Prince's father lives out on the west coast,too! So why isn't this an easy decision you ask, because I don't wanna just run home a failure. I do love my job more than anything...but is this the best place for us to be....I have been trying to answer that for the last eight months and I still cannot make up my mind. Maybe tomorrow I will have an answer!

Monday....

I have decided that I DO NOT like the mornings. I am working first shift right now and that requires me to get up around 5 am. I love staying up late at night but then I pay for it the next morning. One would think that I would learn that I must go to bed at a decent hour in order to be fully awake at work. Yesterday morning I had washed my face with my face soap and poured the shampoo into my hand and then put the shampoo on my face!! As soon as I did it I was awake. I told myself that I would be going to bed at a reasonable hour so that did not happen again, but I did not follow my own advice yet again. Thank goodness there are no hidden cameras in my shower. That must have been quite a sight.
Now for my weekend update. Lets see...Friday night we stopped for tacos and my Prince's favorite cheese sauce at Barbarritos. It was wild in there. There was a lady that was letting her FOUR wild indians run wild. They were running and screaming and jumping on the seats. I had just gotten off of a ten hour shift with a busy radio and tons of crazy people turning themselves in so I was in NO mood to smile and suck it up and watch the out of control children. What's wrong with parents these days? She didn't even attempt to stop the craziness. Anyways not my problem! Saturday was spent working and then we went to a new Japanese restaurant with one of the officers on my team. His girl does my hair when I have the money to get it done. I had never been to this restaurant and since my Prince does not like the food there I thought I should go while I had someone to go with. It was good and we got to bed late but our bellies were full. Sunday I was back at work and I think everyone woke up on the wrong side of the bed and after church they wanted to take their bad day out on someone. That would be me!! My Lt had to kick one irate person out of the PD lobby. That was the highlight of my day!! After work I got my favorite soda and my newspapers and just relaxed. Painted my toes and then stayed up waaay to late watching shows that I had on my DVR. Not very glamorous this weekend, but maybe next weekend will be more newsworthy.....

Kids say the craziest things...

My regular babysitter was taking the day off yesterday so one of my friends at work was watching my Prince. They picked him up at work and went to a few yard sales and then on to McDonalds to play all day long. Somewhere along the way he proceeds to tell my friend that we are trying to save up a thousand dollars and then we are going to adopt another child. WHAT?! Where did he get that idea? I can barely afford one child and I do not have the patience for any more kids. My friend sweet lady that she is says to him why doesn't your mom just have another baby. He in turn says oh, my mom isn't married so she can't have any more kids. So she comes back with maybe we should get your mom married. He agreed with her and they went about their day. I laughed my head off when I heard of this conversation. He is a smart boy and he loves me dearly, but there will be NO MORE CHILDREN in our family. The odd part of all that is that he knows that I cannot have any more children ever, so I thought it strange that he told my friend that the only reason I wasn't having another child was because I was not married. My friend got a good laugh and I am going to try and remember to write that conversation in his "baby" book. I love to go back and read the things that I have put in there. It is crazy how much I forget as time goes by.

Back from nowhere

I have not been keeping up with my blog as you can well see. The time has flown by and so much has changed for me. I sometimes don't want to write about what is going on in my life because I am so frustrated with things. To catch up we bought my dream house, moved in, things got messy, I moved out, we got a divorce and now me and my Prince live in a small two bedroom apartment. The ex kept the house, none of the bills and I paid for the divorce. Needless to say I am a wee bit bitter. I am barely scraping by on my small salary, but I love my job. I struggle every day with trying to decide if we would be better off back at home in California. I just don't know if it would be the right thing to do. I have finally got my act together and we have found a small church to attend. Finally I have found some friendly people. I have run into some very unwelcoming women out here. I will try and update my blog as to our new adventures on a more regular basis. For now its back to work!!