Blackberry Update

In my previous post today I failed to update everyone on the Blackberry situation. I went to activate my new "refurbished" Blackberry and my old one with all my contacts and settings miraculously came to life. I wanted to keep the old one so I decided to keep it for a week or so to see if I was really back from the dead. Well the Verizon guy said that I had to use the new "refurbished" Blackberry or the insurance would not cover the phone if it broke again. So, I got the new "refurbished" Blackberry up and running and got all the settings just the way I liked them and then...it wouldn't charge. I finally got it to charge and thought maybe that had been a fluke, but no it was not a fluke. Finally on Halloween night it died. So, I had to call the insurance company and have them send yet another new "refurbished" Blackberry. Since the phone died before I could forward the phone number to my other cell phone I had to call customer service and mess with them for about an hour before everything was set up the way I needed it to be. Three days later I received my new "refurbished" Blackberry. I set this one up all by myself and now it is working perfectly...Happiness at last...lets hope it lasts!!!!

Back Again

I haven't written in a few weeks, but I am still here. My little prince and I are surviving. I have decided to pursue a job here in North Carolina and I will be looking for a roommate. I am looking into a job in our communications call center, basically that is a 911 operator. The pay starts off better and there is overtime to be had. They have filled all of their open positions but they still have three over hire positions that are frozen as of today, but hopefully they can talk the city into thawing one position for me. I went and sat with two teams and I guess they were impressed with me and feel that I would be a good match for their group. They work twelve hour shifts and there are six people on a team. I am trying real hard not to get my hopes up too far with the economy the way it is jobs are harder to come by. I have decided to stay here for the time being and just live my life the way I want and not the way anyone else wants me to live. I came out here to start over and now I need to follow through. I guess I just didn't realize how hard it would be to start all over again. Anyways we are gonna be fine and I will get things back in order within the next few years. My little prince got straight A's this first quarter and numerous other awards. I am so proud of him!!! I can't believe that he will be turning nine years old this next month. I can't possibly be old enough to have a child that old, right? Stop laughing! He was in a little Christmas program at the church last weekend and got a little shy. I had to work that day but the children's choir leader told me that he was a little shy singing in front of everyone. He has really enjoyed going to church and we make it a priority to be there. I think that he might have told his Sunday school teacher that we are poor because they sent us a gift card to Wal Mart. I asked him if he had said anything and he said oh yes I told them that my mom didn't have any money. I was mortified, but that's how it goes with kids...

WORDS OF WISDOM

IN MY QUEST TO MAKE A DECISION AS TO OUR LIVING SITUATION I HAVE HAD MANY A DISCUSSION WITH MY LITTLE PRINCE. THIS WEEKEND HE HAD SOME WORDS OF WISDOM FOR ME. AS I WAS EXPLAINING THAT SOMETIMES LIFE DOESN'T WORK OUT LIKE THE FAIRY TALE THAT I HAD ENVISIONED HE SAID YOU KNOW FAIRY TALES ARE NOT REAL THEY ARE TALL TALES....

MY FOUR DAYS OFF

RIGHT NOW I AM WORKING THIRD SHIFT. THAT IS NINE AT NIGHT TO SEVEN IN THE MORNING. I DO LIKE THIS SHIFT. LAST WEEK I GOT NO SLEEP AT ALL. WHEN I GOT HOME ON FRIDAY MORNING I WENT TO SLEEP AND I SLEPT ALL DAY. I PICKED UP MY LITTLE PRINCE AT ABOUT 5:30 PM AND WE ATE DINNER AND THEN I WENT STRAIGHT TO BED. I DID NOT GET UP UNTIL NOON ON SATURDAY. IT WAS FABULOUS. MY PRINCE LIKES IT WHEN I SLEEP BECAUSE THEN HE GETS TO WATCH HIS SHOWS ON TV. ONCE I WOKE UP WE WERE GOING TO GO TO THE MOVIES, BUT OF COURSE MY FABULOUS LUCK HAD OTHER IDEAS. FIRST OF ALL I WAS WOKEN UP BY A TEXT MESSAGE FROM MY EX HUSBAND..THE MOST RECENT EX..I HAVE HAD VERY LITTLE CONTACT WITH THAT ONE SINCE LEAVING OUR HOUSE. THIS PAST WEEK I SAW THAT HE HAD GOTTEN A DWI IN A NEIGHBORING COUNTY AND THAT JUST CONFIRMED YET AGAIN THAT I HAD MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE TO LEAVE. I MADE A FEW PHONE CALLS AND THEN WAS PERUSING CRAIGSLIST WHEN THE HORRIBLE HAPPENED..MY BLACKBERRY CRASHED!!! I DO NOT HAVE A COMPUTER AT HOME SO MY BLACKBERRY IS MY LIFELINE. IT HAD A PREVIOUS ACCIDENT A FEW MONTHS AGO THAT INVOLVED THE TOILET AND MAYBE BEING SUBMERGED FOR A MINUTE. IT HAD DRIED OUT NICELY AND WAS WORKING LIKE A CHAMP UNTIL THIS PAST SATURDAY. WELL, THEN IT WAS TIME TO GET UP SHOWER AND OFF TO THE BLACKBERRY STORE. THE ABSOLUTE MOST RUDE PERSON WAS WORKING BEHIND THE COUNTER WHEN I GOT TO THE STORE. SHE TOOK ONE LOOK AT MY PINK LITTLE BEAUTY AND SAID IT IS DEAD...NO LOOKING AT IT OR HOOKING IT UP TO LIFE SUPPORT..JUST A ITS DONE IT HAS BEEN WATER DAMAGED! NOT HEARING WHAT I WANTED I GRABBED MY LITTLE PINK FRIEND AND WAS ON TO THE NEXT BLACKBERRY STORE. THE TWO MEN THAT WERE WORKING AT THIS STORE WERE MUCH MORE FRIENDLY AND THEY HUMORED ME FOR A FEW MINUTES AND THEN I JUST HAD TO ACCEPT THAT MY FRIEND WAS IN FACT DONE FOR. WELL HERE IS THE PROBLEM..I DID HAVE INSURANCE AND ANOTHER PHONE LINE THAT I COULD USE UNTIL THE REPLACEMENT WAS SENT..BUT I DID NOT HAVE MY CONTACTS BACKED UP! YES, YEARS OF PHONE NUMBERS GONE!! I HAVE NUMBERS FROM FOREVER AGO AND NOW THEY ARE JUST GONE. I NEVER DIAL ANY ONES NUMBER ANYMORE I JUST FIND THEIR NAME AND PUSH SEND. SO LONG STORY SHORT I NEED EVERYONE TO SEND ME THEIR CURRENT EMAIL ADDRESS AND CURRENT PHONE NUMBER. WELL THEN ON TO SUNDAY. WE MADE IT TO SUNDAY SCHOOL JUST BY THE SKIN OF OUR TEETH AND THEN OFF TO CHURCH. I HAD TO RUSH TO GET MY NEWSPAPERS AND SODA AND THEN HOME TO WAIT FOR THE NEW BLACKBERRY. WE WAITED ALL DAY AND NOTHING. I DECIDED THAT WE WOULD GO OUT AND SEE A MOVIE IN THE EARLY EVENING. THE ONLY MOVIE THAT WE HAVE AGREED ON IN A LONG TIME WAS BEVERLY HILLS CHIHUAHUA. IT WAS OK AT LEAST I DIDN'T FALL ASLEEP. THEN IT WAS HOME TO GET READY FOR THE SCHOOL WEEK. MONDAY WAS SPENT WAITING AT HOME ALL DAY FOR THE DHL MAN TO DELIVER MY NEW FRIEND. BY FIVE I WAS A LITTLE HOT AS I WAS PROMISED NEXT DAY DELIVERY ON SATURDAY AND HERE IT WAS MONDAY EVENING. I WAS GOING THROUGH CRAIGSLIST WITHDRAWAL. WELL MY REPLACEMENT FINALLY ARRIVED ON TUESDAY AT ALMOST THREE IN THE AFTERNOON. MY FOUR DAYS WAS OFFICIALLY OVER AND IT WAS TIME TO START MY WORK WEEK ALL OVER AGAIN...SO YOU ARE OFFICIALLY CAUGHT UP...I THINK!!!!

Still thinking

I am still trying to decide what to do about my living situation. I listened to the comments that were made and they made sense. Maybe the person that I'm worried about disappointing is myself. I think that if I go back I will let myself down. I came out here to have a new start and sure it didn't turn out the way I thought it would, but does life ever go the way we think it should? I also know that if I go back things will never be the same and that might lead to even more disappointment. I went to church on Wednesday night and I really liked the sermon. The pastor always seems to be speaking right to me. I think that I will have to keep thinking about this decision, maybe next week I will have an answer to my dilemma.....

Newspaper

I love reading the newspaper. That has always been a joke in all of my relationships. I have to read the newspaper everyday in the same order. I used to get tore back when my paper was not delivered. Since I have lived out in NC I have read the Bakersfield paper everyday. I just realized that I keep up on news out there more than I do here in NC. I think that is very interesting....I still read the Sunday paper here but I do not keep up on local events or local scandals. I just don't have much to say today. I have so much on my mind and I have so many mixed feelings about all the decisions I have to make. I need to get all my ducks in a row and make a final decision. For some reason I feel like I will be letting people down here in NC if I go home, but I know that I really need to do whats best for me and my Prince. Just an FYI to the girls that have been commenting on my blog I have not forgotten the September birthdays. I have been compiling a little picture collage and I wanted to call on a day that wasn't so hectic with us all having children now special days are sometimes almost too crazy. I have not forgotten you two. I have been going through all the pictures of our young crazy days!!! Ok, now back to letting people down here in NC. I have made this friend here at work and she really needs someone in her life to help her up if you will. Her husband is a real gem. He is always first to put her down and point out all of her non existent flaws...you know the type. I always try to lift her spirits and treat her especially well. I just feel like I would be abandoning her. The other people are the people at the church we just started going to. They are soooo down to earth and they have been soo nice to me and my Prince. I enjoy all the sermons that the pastor has given and I just hope they would not be disappointed. I don't know why I care so much what other people think or if I am letting others down?! I guess I did have more to say than I thought, sorry for rambling...more later...

Should I stay.....

Should I stay or should I go is the question of the day. I can't seem to make up my mind. I love my job here and I do like the area, but I am all alone out here. I struggle horribly financially out here and I am terribly lonely. Every time I think I'm at my breaking point I just keep trying. I had this great boyfriend but that isn't going to go anywhere and that doesn't help with being lonely. I started going to a church and I do like it, but I just don't fit in out here. The thing is that I want to live the lifestyle that I was accustomed to back home and I cannot do that here. If I stay I will always struggle financially. I just cannot put anything else on my credit cards and I just want to go home. I just don't know what the right thing to do is... I miss my friends and my life back home. I miss going out to eat and going to the beach and visiting my family. I have seen my parents only once in almost two years. I haven't seen one of my sisters at all and I miss her so much. My little Prince's father lives out on the west coast,too! So why isn't this an easy decision you ask, because I don't wanna just run home a failure. I do love my job more than anything...but is this the best place for us to be....I have been trying to answer that for the last eight months and I still cannot make up my mind. Maybe tomorrow I will have an answer!