WORDS OF WISDOM

IN MY QUEST TO MAKE A DECISION AS TO OUR LIVING SITUATION I HAVE HAD MANY A DISCUSSION WITH MY LITTLE PRINCE. THIS WEEKEND HE HAD SOME WORDS OF WISDOM FOR ME. AS I WAS EXPLAINING THAT SOMETIMES LIFE DOESN'T WORK OUT LIKE THE FAIRY TALE THAT I HAD ENVISIONED HE SAID YOU KNOW FAIRY TALES ARE NOT REAL THEY ARE TALL TALES....

MY FOUR DAYS OFF

RIGHT NOW I AM WORKING THIRD SHIFT. THAT IS NINE AT NIGHT TO SEVEN IN THE MORNING. I DO LIKE THIS SHIFT. LAST WEEK I GOT NO SLEEP AT ALL. WHEN I GOT HOME ON FRIDAY MORNING I WENT TO SLEEP AND I SLEPT ALL DAY. I PICKED UP MY LITTLE PRINCE AT ABOUT 5:30 PM AND WE ATE DINNER AND THEN I WENT STRAIGHT TO BED. I DID NOT GET UP UNTIL NOON ON SATURDAY. IT WAS FABULOUS. MY PRINCE LIKES IT WHEN I SLEEP BECAUSE THEN HE GETS TO WATCH HIS SHOWS ON TV. ONCE I WOKE UP WE WERE GOING TO GO TO THE MOVIES, BUT OF COURSE MY FABULOUS LUCK HAD OTHER IDEAS. FIRST OF ALL I WAS WOKEN UP BY A TEXT MESSAGE FROM MY EX HUSBAND..THE MOST RECENT EX..I HAVE HAD VERY LITTLE CONTACT WITH THAT ONE SINCE LEAVING OUR HOUSE. THIS PAST WEEK I SAW THAT HE HAD GOTTEN A DWI IN A NEIGHBORING COUNTY AND THAT JUST CONFIRMED YET AGAIN THAT I HAD MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE TO LEAVE. I MADE A FEW PHONE CALLS AND THEN WAS PERUSING CRAIGSLIST WHEN THE HORRIBLE HAPPENED..MY BLACKBERRY CRASHED!!! I DO NOT HAVE A COMPUTER AT HOME SO MY BLACKBERRY IS MY LIFELINE. IT HAD A PREVIOUS ACCIDENT A FEW MONTHS AGO THAT INVOLVED THE TOILET AND MAYBE BEING SUBMERGED FOR A MINUTE. IT HAD DRIED OUT NICELY AND WAS WORKING LIKE A CHAMP UNTIL THIS PAST SATURDAY. WELL, THEN IT WAS TIME TO GET UP SHOWER AND OFF TO THE BLACKBERRY STORE. THE ABSOLUTE MOST RUDE PERSON WAS WORKING BEHIND THE COUNTER WHEN I GOT TO THE STORE. SHE TOOK ONE LOOK AT MY PINK LITTLE BEAUTY AND SAID IT IS DEAD...NO LOOKING AT IT OR HOOKING IT UP TO LIFE SUPPORT..JUST A ITS DONE IT HAS BEEN WATER DAMAGED! NOT HEARING WHAT I WANTED I GRABBED MY LITTLE PINK FRIEND AND WAS ON TO THE NEXT BLACKBERRY STORE. THE TWO MEN THAT WERE WORKING AT THIS STORE WERE MUCH MORE FRIENDLY AND THEY HUMORED ME FOR A FEW MINUTES AND THEN I JUST HAD TO ACCEPT THAT MY FRIEND WAS IN FACT DONE FOR. WELL HERE IS THE PROBLEM..I DID HAVE INSURANCE AND ANOTHER PHONE LINE THAT I COULD USE UNTIL THE REPLACEMENT WAS SENT..BUT I DID NOT HAVE MY CONTACTS BACKED UP! YES, YEARS OF PHONE NUMBERS GONE!! I HAVE NUMBERS FROM FOREVER AGO AND NOW THEY ARE JUST GONE. I NEVER DIAL ANY ONES NUMBER ANYMORE I JUST FIND THEIR NAME AND PUSH SEND. SO LONG STORY SHORT I NEED EVERYONE TO SEND ME THEIR CURRENT EMAIL ADDRESS AND CURRENT PHONE NUMBER. WELL THEN ON TO SUNDAY. WE MADE IT TO SUNDAY SCHOOL JUST BY THE SKIN OF OUR TEETH AND THEN OFF TO CHURCH. I HAD TO RUSH TO GET MY NEWSPAPERS AND SODA AND THEN HOME TO WAIT FOR THE NEW BLACKBERRY. WE WAITED ALL DAY AND NOTHING. I DECIDED THAT WE WOULD GO OUT AND SEE A MOVIE IN THE EARLY EVENING. THE ONLY MOVIE THAT WE HAVE AGREED ON IN A LONG TIME WAS BEVERLY HILLS CHIHUAHUA. IT WAS OK AT LEAST I DIDN'T FALL ASLEEP. THEN IT WAS HOME TO GET READY FOR THE SCHOOL WEEK. MONDAY WAS SPENT WAITING AT HOME ALL DAY FOR THE DHL MAN TO DELIVER MY NEW FRIEND. BY FIVE I WAS A LITTLE HOT AS I WAS PROMISED NEXT DAY DELIVERY ON SATURDAY AND HERE IT WAS MONDAY EVENING. I WAS GOING THROUGH CRAIGSLIST WITHDRAWAL. WELL MY REPLACEMENT FINALLY ARRIVED ON TUESDAY AT ALMOST THREE IN THE AFTERNOON. MY FOUR DAYS WAS OFFICIALLY OVER AND IT WAS TIME TO START MY WORK WEEK ALL OVER AGAIN...SO YOU ARE OFFICIALLY CAUGHT UP...I THINK!!!!

Still thinking

I am still trying to decide what to do about my living situation. I listened to the comments that were made and they made sense. Maybe the person that I'm worried about disappointing is myself. I think that if I go back I will let myself down. I came out here to have a new start and sure it didn't turn out the way I thought it would, but does life ever go the way we think it should? I also know that if I go back things will never be the same and that might lead to even more disappointment. I went to church on Wednesday night and I really liked the sermon. The pastor always seems to be speaking right to me. I think that I will have to keep thinking about this decision, maybe next week I will have an answer to my dilemma.....